"This morning I woke up and decided to tell the truth.
I am not okay, and I don’t think that any of us are,
and I don’t think that we need to apologize for it.
Friends call to make plans and I say yes,
instantly regretting it. If it’s not alcohol,
it’s getting high, it’s music so loud my bones hum.
It’s driving around and making promises with our pinkies
or throwing up on the side of the street or kissing
each other so violently that we’re swallowing hair,
wisdom teeth. It’s loneliness so deep in my stomach
it’s in my womb and kneecaps. I’m writing this because
I fucking want you to feel something. I want you to
sweat me out like a fever. Okay, okay, listen:
I want to be a new girl but it’s these old habits.
We’re all so warm and feeling and I can’t quite
get this taste out of my mouth. We fling love around
like we don’t expect to get it back. It feels like
only yesterday my mother was kissing my scrapes
and bruises. Only yesterday I was learning to tie my shoes,
snap my fingers, be trusted with the delicate task
of dressing myself. I don’t think it’s safe here anymore.
Empty out your chest and get ready to run."
So I’m really fucking slow, and reread Karkat’s and Sollux’s first conversation in Homestuck and I FINALLY GET WHY KARKAT WAS SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED AND ASKED IF THEY WERE STILL FRIENDS, AND WANTED NO ONE TO EVER KNOW THIS HAPPENED.
THEY WERE FLIRTING.
LOOK AT ALL THIS HATEFLIRTING
OH MY GLUB I NEVER REALLY PROCESSED THAT
(Source: caliguleas, via meulinthemage)
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